Current mood:

hungry

wow i havnt updated in lyk a year....oops..lol
nothin major has happended recently...same old shit different day as usual...i want sumthin new and exciting to happen...where im jus lyk OMG THAT WAS AWESOME!!!

lyk 21 days of school left...i cant wait...i hafta write my research paper for english tho b4 i can graduate...im having such a tough time comin up with a thesis tho...its really really startin to stress me out...i jus cant wait for may 6th to come when i pass tha paper in and dont hafta worry bout it ne more...we got report cards tha otha day...if i didnt fail AP bio then i would have had tha best report card that i've ever gotton...all of my other grades were b's cept one c+

im really really sad...shayne cant go to my prom...when he told me all i wanted to do was cry...ever since i was little i've been thinking bout my sr prom and how i wanted it to be tha best night ever with sumone i really care bout...but now shayne cant go :( my friends are havin issues with there dates to so i think its jus gunna be a good night for me and my friends to spend 2gether as lyk our last high school event besides graduation....i've been thinking bout it alot lately and im really sad that me lori kristen and katie arnt gunna be 2gether next year...i mean its always tha 4 of us..were always 2gether in school and on tha weekends and shit...its gunna be so different next year and i hate that...i wish tha 4 of us were goin to tha same college...but on tha bright side..were all bestfriends i no we'll still hang out and stuff..so its not that bad

so shayne leaves 2nyt at 4 in tha mornin for california...he cant talk to me as much there so thats makin me really sad...its so hard to be so far from sumone u love so much...he gave me sum good news..sum bad new and... sum worse tha otha day...tha good news was that hes comin home at tha end of may tha had news was that its only for 6 days..and tha worse news is lyk a week afta he leaves here he has to go to iraq...i really really dont want him to go...if ne thing were to happen to him i really wouldnt be able to handle it...i cant even thing bout him goin over there without cryin...i jus want him to come home were i no hes safe...i hate him being away so much..i jus wanna be able to hug him and kiss him...or even to look into his eyes....i jus miss everything...last night we talked on tha phone til like 1 in tha mornin and it was such a good conversation...im gunna miss that so much...i love him so much its crazy...lyk tha first time i was in love i never thought i would find sumone that i loved more then him and once we broke up that scared me so much cus i thought i would never have that feeling ever again...but shayne give me that feeling plus so much more..its crazy...it makes me so happy but at tha same time so sad cus it makes me miss him so much :( im gunna stop there for 2day cus im gettin really emotional

me and katie chill last night...we spent sum tym jus walkin around cus when we were younger we used to do that ALL tha time and we never do it since we got cars...that was fun we jus talked bout everything...then tha kid that lives nex door sed he was havin a party so we went ova there and it was kool or w/e but we didnt know ne one really so we kinda stood in tha back and did nothing so afta lyk a half hour we left...it was okay tho me and katie havnt done ne thing for awhile so i had fun

ne ways im out for now...peace